capriciously

I don't know why I want to change. But I had this weird dream just the other day.

I was in a garden drinking tea. Weird. And then a girl in yellow came up to me and say she want to talk to me. Then she say. You must grow up and move on. The she showed me Terrence very happy talking to this girl that I don't know.(His girlfriend?) Then she showed me my enemies having miserable lives not fighting with me. Then after that the girl pushed me into the river by the garden and I woke up . I didn't think much of it till YY told me that Terrence actually was still with his current stead. I am like. Wa. So releated. Actually everytime I hear somebody say the name Terrence my heart will beat fast then slow down then I will start to like. Wa. Wtf. Then cannot let my feelings be known. I mean. I really like him . But what he did to me is like climbing a thousand dagger mountains. But after I hear he was with his current stead, happily without me I was like. Kind of happy le. I mean, you want the people you love to be happy, right? I think its time for me to move on and stop being childish. I shall also forget him in time. I mean. Still got alot of men out there. Singapore's men is not even 1/4 of the world's population . And the people who offendend me don't really want to offend me so I must forgive and forget. Its the way of life.